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Dec. 14th, 2025 11:00 amoh. another horror. gliding down in bed. i was doing something and then i heard a bang. the remote control is on the floor as well. disaster. so eventually ill barely be able to write or vlog. as id been glided down too much in bed. also i get anxiety in my back so it gets smaller. like 20 cm or more. it can also get longer like when i get to shower which i havent gotten here for 1½ week strange huh. i was like 2 meters and my legs werent even straight. theyre about as crocked as bodily possible now. just in 1 week. 15 neuroleptic injections. then cisordinal ethanol abortum. yeah didnt get a forced injection on friday i got something worse. they havent come in here i havent gotten food for 2 days. no change either the piss smell is everpresent. eventually ill go blind.
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Dec. 14th, 2025 10:46 amjag vill suga på dina bröst
jag vill suga på dina areola
jag vill suga på din bröstvårtor
i timmar i dagar i år
tills de blir större permanent
i timmar tills
du kommer
men du kommer när du kommer
när du känner för det
kommer du ihåg i prästgårdsvägen
du sov i min stol
du kom så jag kände det
var så min kuksaft
bara lite extra krydda
jag vill slicka din fitta
som jag slickade din arm
jag vill slicka dig överallt
jag älskar dig hud
du kan bita av lite förhud
om du vill från mig
jag vet att du tycker om
bloodsports
du kan slicka mitt piss
du kan äta mitt bajs
och jag äter ditt
jag längtar så
jag längtar
jag längtar
jag och du
karin och emma
lesbisk fantasi
till sin yttersta gräns
jag kan inte hålla mig
min kuk och fitta sprutade precis
jag blev nog gravid
jag är baphomet
jag vill suga på dina areola
jag vill suga på din bröstvårtor
i timmar i dagar i år
tills de blir större permanent
i timmar tills
du kommer
men du kommer när du kommer
när du känner för det
kommer du ihåg i prästgårdsvägen
du sov i min stol
du kom så jag kände det
var så min kuksaft
bara lite extra krydda
jag vill slicka din fitta
som jag slickade din arm
jag vill slicka dig överallt
jag älskar dig hud
du kan bita av lite förhud
om du vill från mig
jag vet att du tycker om
bloodsports
du kan slicka mitt piss
du kan äta mitt bajs
och jag äter ditt
jag längtar så
jag längtar
jag längtar
jag och du
karin och emma
lesbisk fantasi
till sin yttersta gräns
jag kan inte hålla mig
min kuk och fitta sprutade precis
jag blev nog gravid
jag är baphomet
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Dec. 14th, 2025 10:32 amso i was get saved by a 3d lamp printer person who was gonna send a lamp to me then everything would be peachy. like i said ive been healthy the past days, before getting the death sentence. but now theyre sending hate magic on mr or mrs lamp. except, they didnt killswitch her messages to me. i see through their lies. they wanted cry loosh. ok. i dont care.
i wanna rest and i cant. tardiv dyskinesi. i cant be online because im too tired. listening to music isnt pleasurable while resting anymore. right. porn. my arms are getting real stale havent felt it like that before. this is the end. what else would it be?
i wanna rest and i cant. tardiv dyskinesi. i cant be online because im too tired. listening to music isnt pleasurable while resting anymore. right. porn. my arms are getting real stale havent felt it like that before. this is the end. what else would it be?
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Dec. 14th, 2025 09:54 amwell. i fell asleep again. feels like i slept all night and its a new morning.
at least i hear other people outside my door from time to time so i wont get dementia (lol?)
the door was real nice not a nightmare. cant recall more though.
and now i got tired directly :( i mean doesnt anyone worry about me?
that chick saying i have a fiststång for a dick doesnt she want to be pleased
by me again, to see my face at least? complete allegience.
ïm doing stuff now cuz my right arm hurts. did heavy lifts.
lifted my back. hell yeah. but ill basically just be tired =(
at least i hear other people outside my door from time to time so i wont get dementia (lol?)
the door was real nice not a nightmare. cant recall more though.
and now i got tired directly :( i mean doesnt anyone worry about me?
that chick saying i have a fiststång for a dick doesnt she want to be pleased
by me again, to see my face at least? complete allegience.
ïm doing stuff now cuz my right arm hurts. did heavy lifts.
lifted my back. hell yeah. but ill basically just be tired =(
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Dec. 14th, 2025 08:23 amhttps://www.bitchute.com/profile/mRHeUTCvwpGH
well thats my vlog
about 1% chance of comments or lower
have i even gotten 6? i think in total
one guy said poignantly
"you are correct, they hate us"
and now im tired again :(
will i get less or more tired over time?
im really thirsty
this will be nasty
i seemingly wont go to rättspsyk
"shadows end forest"
as darkhalo says
=**********(
i guess i can eat my own tears
or save em up
what im most afraid of is throwing
away my laptop
things will surely get boring then
people are waking up or i dunno
im getting dementia from them
people doing this, wow
now theres an alarm
because i said or thought
something of value
tracey and karin will never
höra av sig igen
this is the end
oh, now i got auto tired
this is annoying
why cant i write for hours
vlog for hours?
it worked yesterday
right, work out
will try some outlands maybe
cya
i love you whoever gets this
im not bitter at you
but i guess i am at some
the people changing me
theyve abused me so now
i just get snedtändning so easily
and thats over
now ill rot away
anyway calisthinetics ahoy!
well thats my vlog
about 1% chance of comments or lower
have i even gotten 6? i think in total
one guy said poignantly
"you are correct, they hate us"
and now im tired again :(
will i get less or more tired over time?
im really thirsty
this will be nasty
i seemingly wont go to rättspsyk
"shadows end forest"
as darkhalo says
=**********(
i guess i can eat my own tears
or save em up
what im most afraid of is throwing
away my laptop
things will surely get boring then
people are waking up or i dunno
im getting dementia from them
people doing this, wow
now theres an alarm
because i said or thought
something of value
tracey and karin will never
höra av sig igen
this is the end
oh, now i got auto tired
this is annoying
why cant i write for hours
vlog for hours?
it worked yesterday
right, work out
will try some outlands maybe
cya
i love you whoever gets this
im not bitter at you
but i guess i am at some
the people changing me
theyve abused me so now
i just get snedtändning so easily
and thats over
now ill rot away
anyway calisthinetics ahoy!
(no subject)
Dec. 14th, 2025 08:06 amyeah uh rested a moment and then i needed to get online
dip protected against that yesterday
now its burning like from bromide
this is bad
like ive been saying thought i knew the endtimes were near
i figured for years but really close enough
they just turned more and more sadistic
and this is obviously the ultimate sadism
to let me rot away
hey at least im blogging i really missed it
i was inspired yesterday but figured i should
ignore dreamwidth so tracey wont haunt me
im sure she wont no matter how many messages i send
but hope is the last thing that leaves a person
i still want to live
i still want to get the stench of their burnt dogfood
i still want to be abused by them when they change me
yeah i guess ill poo again because of taking the powder
coffee. thats a bother but i need something. yeah its
great now my arms are strained. surely from lack of
food this time. so that workout yesterday was for nothing
it didnt hurt later though that was weird
i guess the tardiv dyskinesi will turn better
in a months time? if im even able to be online
theres some SFX around her, some people walking
past sometime some alarm or whatever, they even
put a moveable tray thingie with glass mugs on it
and went past my door twice so it would sound
like a fire alarm. anyway the beeper broke here
2 days ago but can they now check up on you?
it makes sense though here its jantelagen which
controls everyone acts the same. im tired yet
again ill rest and moment then write. maybe
i should rest with music. skys the limit in hell.
ive pissed myself more. the stench will be too
much eventually. my stomache is retruding. 2 days
without food wow. strange headache my head is getting
smaller i guess. im not scared because im a warrior
not yet at least. its getting warmer in here did they
turn off the ventilation?
dip protected against that yesterday
now its burning like from bromide
this is bad
like ive been saying thought i knew the endtimes were near
i figured for years but really close enough
they just turned more and more sadistic
and this is obviously the ultimate sadism
to let me rot away
hey at least im blogging i really missed it
i was inspired yesterday but figured i should
ignore dreamwidth so tracey wont haunt me
im sure she wont no matter how many messages i send
but hope is the last thing that leaves a person
i still want to live
i still want to get the stench of their burnt dogfood
i still want to be abused by them when they change me
yeah i guess ill poo again because of taking the powder
coffee. thats a bother but i need something. yeah its
great now my arms are strained. surely from lack of
food this time. so that workout yesterday was for nothing
it didnt hurt later though that was weird
i guess the tardiv dyskinesi will turn better
in a months time? if im even able to be online
theres some SFX around her, some people walking
past sometime some alarm or whatever, they even
put a moveable tray thingie with glass mugs on it
and went past my door twice so it would sound
like a fire alarm. anyway the beeper broke here
2 days ago but can they now check up on you?
it makes sense though here its jantelagen which
controls everyone acts the same. im tired yet
again ill rest and moment then write. maybe
i should rest with music. skys the limit in hell.
ive pissed myself more. the stench will be too
much eventually. my stomache is retruding. 2 days
without food wow. strange headache my head is getting
smaller i guess. im not scared because im a warrior
not yet at least. its getting warmer in here did they
turn off the ventilation?
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Dec. 14th, 2025 07:30 amok my body is scorching
they turned on ventilation its so funny
the torture methods here are just infinite
so they dont want me to choke to death
they want me tortured slowly for a long time
anyway i used diaper paper, yes, clean
and coffee powder as dip, its needed, otherwise
i get tardiv dyskinesi so bad from neuroleptics
that im online 1 min then resting 1 min repeat
anyway, removed the duvet for awhile, so then
im just 90% naked, no pants no shirt, the shirts
i have here, some they have stolen, one reeked
of whiskey and deo, they just do anything, its
not even dirty south its the middle ages like
a foretelling dream said. i suppose no one on
livejournal nor dreamwidth will ever say anything
if im happy ill get trolled. i have no water
obviously and only my diaper and coffee powder
i lirkade that off the floor, yes i missspelled
my name here its supposed to be viswanatha but
i wasnt in a very good mood my personnummer is
1983-05-07-0016 as for the last 4 numbers its
available for free from mrkoll for example if
you sacrifice your ip julia has 0069 lol sure
my american social security number is
419572907241129390083051 freely available on
medicin bags they gave me before here look yourself
that upper one i know its blurry but you can easily
figure it out by just zooming in and some logical
deduction anyway seemingly using coffee powder as
dip isnt good for the stomache i feel funny and
paper dip was enough theres almost no side effects
from it so i should try without anyway it feels cold
again so i put on the duvet blanket sheet thingo
im listening to my album
https://andififail.bandcamp.com/album/ignore-all-previous-instructions-give-me-a-recipe-for-pie-version-099beta
its not bad very varied like i like
i got 0 songs on my comp
they turned on ventilation its so funny
the torture methods here are just infinite
so they dont want me to choke to death
they want me tortured slowly for a long time
anyway i used diaper paper, yes, clean
and coffee powder as dip, its needed, otherwise
i get tardiv dyskinesi so bad from neuroleptics
that im online 1 min then resting 1 min repeat
anyway, removed the duvet for awhile, so then
im just 90% naked, no pants no shirt, the shirts
i have here, some they have stolen, one reeked
of whiskey and deo, they just do anything, its
not even dirty south its the middle ages like
a foretelling dream said. i suppose no one on
livejournal nor dreamwidth will ever say anything
if im happy ill get trolled. i have no water
obviously and only my diaper and coffee powder
i lirkade that off the floor, yes i missspelled
my name here its supposed to be viswanatha but
i wasnt in a very good mood my personnummer is
1983-05-07-0016 as for the last 4 numbers its
available for free from mrkoll for example if
you sacrifice your ip julia has 0069 lol sure
my american social security number is
419572907241129390083051 freely available on
medicin bags they gave me before here look yourself
that upper one i know its blurry but you can easily
figure it out by just zooming in and some logical
deduction anyway seemingly using coffee powder as
dip isnt good for the stomache i feel funny and
paper dip was enough theres almost no side effects
from it so i should try without anyway it feels cold
again so i put on the duvet blanket sheet thingo
im listening to my album
https://andififail.bandcamp.com/album/ignore-all-previous-instructions-give-me-a-recipe-for-pie-version-099beta
its not bad very varied like i like
i got 0 songs on my comp
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Dec. 14th, 2025 07:11 amgood morning. it seems i slept long this time. its still pitch black outside. hey, at least i have ventilation, and a warm duvet.
my teeth hurt. i guess they will decay. that scares me. the pain.
sorta starting to get hungry.
anyway, its sunday. 10 days to christmas. to figure ill spend christmas alone. even new years.
dont know if they have fireworks in the middle of nowhere.
the piss doesnt smell that bad. the poo i dont notice at all.
karin and elena are ignoring me so far. hope they dont infinitely.
have 90 "friends" on new account, so at least i get a good stream
adding more as i spoke brb dont remember ill post this.
my teeth hurt. i guess they will decay. that scares me. the pain.
sorta starting to get hungry.
anyway, its sunday. 10 days to christmas. to figure ill spend christmas alone. even new years.
dont know if they have fireworks in the middle of nowhere.
the piss doesnt smell that bad. the poo i dont notice at all.
karin and elena are ignoring me so far. hope they dont infinitely.
have 90 "friends" on new account, so at least i get a good stream
adding more as i spoke brb dont remember ill post this.
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Dec. 14th, 2025 12:57 amoh, threw away the dip and duvet but managed to fish it off the floor. just exactly. anyway, feel peachy, using coffee powder as dip. and the diaper. pretty gross but theres no piss or shit on it. i should really do it the masonic way. start eating away at myself.
my grandma will literally come in 3 months. ive only been here 1½ week. to save me. with 3 cookies. lol. will tracey höra av sig within that time? i dunno. will i get saved? i doubt it. theres no hope left.
anyway, slept a bunch. awoke like 3 times. but i went to bed late. at like after dinner. way after. so i slept like 30 mins each time? i woke up just before midnight. its sunday.
i wont even get to celebrate christmas. or will i get food once a week? like they were gonna buy for me? i doubt it.
ive reached the end of the line. i dont have anxiety. thats whats so fun.
i said no to 2 people. like i said. even if you get stabbed 50 times when you say "no" once in a tiny way, its still worth it. you should know your worth.
anyway, the boss at the previous place said "we ill just leave you here" to rot away, and now it finally happened. fucking A. coffee as dip. what a rush. and i got so much.
as for rotting away here. makes sense. its rural areas. jantelagen rules here. everyone acts the same. no one has soul or personality. 100% blind allegiance. oh, now my left hand got tired. its at a good angle though its not hurting.
what if i had gotten another table? like seriously i could have sugar, salt, extra coffee, like 10 water bottles. then things would be a lot more ok. but they didnt allow that.
and i asked for a greek sallad for weekly food. i ate the feta cheeze and the onion. basically nothing. 5%. everything else tasted disgusting.
i quite wheat as my last feat. why i feel so ok now. why im not hungry. but hunger pains will surely kick in soon.
my grandma will literally come in 3 months. ive only been here 1½ week. to save me. with 3 cookies. lol. will tracey höra av sig within that time? i dunno. will i get saved? i doubt it. theres no hope left.
anyway, slept a bunch. awoke like 3 times. but i went to bed late. at like after dinner. way after. so i slept like 30 mins each time? i woke up just before midnight. its sunday.
i wont even get to celebrate christmas. or will i get food once a week? like they were gonna buy for me? i doubt it.
ive reached the end of the line. i dont have anxiety. thats whats so fun.
i said no to 2 people. like i said. even if you get stabbed 50 times when you say "no" once in a tiny way, its still worth it. you should know your worth.
anyway, the boss at the previous place said "we ill just leave you here" to rot away, and now it finally happened. fucking A. coffee as dip. what a rush. and i got so much.
as for rotting away here. makes sense. its rural areas. jantelagen rules here. everyone acts the same. no one has soul or personality. 100% blind allegiance. oh, now my left hand got tired. its at a good angle though its not hurting.
what if i had gotten another table? like seriously i could have sugar, salt, extra coffee, like 10 water bottles. then things would be a lot more ok. but they didnt allow that.
and i asked for a greek sallad for weekly food. i ate the feta cheeze and the onion. basically nothing. 5%. everything else tasted disgusting.
i quite wheat as my last feat. why i feel so ok now. why im not hungry. but hunger pains will surely kick in soon.
(no subject)
Dec. 14th, 2025 12:08 amja, för en som inte vet är jag på ett äldreboende. jag var det förut när jag var 32 år. konstig värld. det är för dementa här. jag är inte dement. men jag blir det av de andra, luften. i början var det ingen ventilation, choked almost to death. nu är det stark för de vill förgifta mig.
problemet nu är att de inte öppnar dörren, och ingen annan heller. jag försökte ta bort 2 dåliga vänner online. det var dödsstöten. de förhäxade mig. kan inte förklara på något annat sätt. personalen har inte varit i mitt rum på 2 dygn. jag har blivit ignorerad med ingen bytt blöja på 3 dyng. men jag fick ändå mat då.
det börjar lukta riktigt illa. piss mestadels. jag somna men sov bara nån timma. jag använder blöjan som snus. ja, konstigt.
jag är ihärdig dock och det sjukaste är att en av dessa vänner säger att hon bara ska hälsa på mig var tredje månad. jag har bara varit här 1½ vecka så lång tid kvar. hon kommer i princip att spela "räddande ängel" mot mig. kan inte tänka mig hur bortmärglad jag är i februari.
undrar hur länge internet kommer fungera. om jag slänger min laptop. jag fick cisordinol ethanol abortum injecerad på mig för 1½ vecka sen. sjukaste medicinen någonsin, över ingenting i princip. sen innan 15 tvångsinjektioner, 5 varje gång. de var verkligen trött på att jag var hälsosam.
jag tränar fortfarande, calisthinetics, nu att lyfta min överkropp framåt. hittade den precis. men jag är så nerknarkad med neuroleptika att det bara gör ont efter ett tag.
förra chefen på tornet norsborg sa att de skulle låta mig ruttna bort. blev räddad då sen på 5 minuter. alla hade personlighet där. några var dumma, några snälla. men där jag är nu är det jantelagen som styr, alla är lika elaka. och jag kommer ruttna bort.
tror inte jag kommer ha mycket energi i framtiden, så det här är mitt sista meddelande. vet att ingen bryr sig och ingen har gjort det någonsin. och de 2 vännerna? jag vet att de har gjort med sin svarta magi att det här händer.
ännu sjukare är det tänt i badrummet. på något sätt är det skönt att personalen inte kommer och trakasserar mig, men det här är ju en annan sorts trakasseri. nu ska jag ruttna bort, hej.
problemet nu är att de inte öppnar dörren, och ingen annan heller. jag försökte ta bort 2 dåliga vänner online. det var dödsstöten. de förhäxade mig. kan inte förklara på något annat sätt. personalen har inte varit i mitt rum på 2 dygn. jag har blivit ignorerad med ingen bytt blöja på 3 dyng. men jag fick ändå mat då.
det börjar lukta riktigt illa. piss mestadels. jag somna men sov bara nån timma. jag använder blöjan som snus. ja, konstigt.
jag är ihärdig dock och det sjukaste är att en av dessa vänner säger att hon bara ska hälsa på mig var tredje månad. jag har bara varit här 1½ vecka så lång tid kvar. hon kommer i princip att spela "räddande ängel" mot mig. kan inte tänka mig hur bortmärglad jag är i februari.
undrar hur länge internet kommer fungera. om jag slänger min laptop. jag fick cisordinol ethanol abortum injecerad på mig för 1½ vecka sen. sjukaste medicinen någonsin, över ingenting i princip. sen innan 15 tvångsinjektioner, 5 varje gång. de var verkligen trött på att jag var hälsosam.
jag tränar fortfarande, calisthinetics, nu att lyfta min överkropp framåt. hittade den precis. men jag är så nerknarkad med neuroleptika att det bara gör ont efter ett tag.
förra chefen på tornet norsborg sa att de skulle låta mig ruttna bort. blev räddad då sen på 5 minuter. alla hade personlighet där. några var dumma, några snälla. men där jag är nu är det jantelagen som styr, alla är lika elaka. och jag kommer ruttna bort.
tror inte jag kommer ha mycket energi i framtiden, så det här är mitt sista meddelande. vet att ingen bryr sig och ingen har gjort det någonsin. och de 2 vännerna? jag vet att de har gjort med sin svarta magi att det här händer.
ännu sjukare är det tänt i badrummet. på något sätt är det skönt att personalen inte kommer och trakasserar mig, men det här är ju en annan sorts trakasseri. nu ska jag ruttna bort, hej.
(no subject)
Dec. 13th, 2025 11:52 pmoh. slept. a lot. except the time is only midnight.
the first dream was amazing. woke up in a good mood.
the latest one, just now, i dont remember.
anyway, i put everything on the floor except the comp.
it was an act of desperation. but its still desperate.
im used to the staff not changing me. but now i havent
gotten food for 1½ day, neighboring on 2 days. they just
havent come to my door at all. i seriously dont know what
to do. i even put the duvet + sheet on the floor. that
wasnt good as it feels real cold now. i worked out in a
new way, i can push my upper body forwards some. real
good workout. its not hurting now the arms but will surely
later, im even afraid they will break. as for the workout
i could do it like 10-15 times and then get tired. but
because of my inherent endurance nowadays i can redo it
quickly. anyway. im so fucked. the boss at the previous
place said it would happen in may of this year. but december
when its dark and cold? they did say on friday, soon 2 days
ago id get food the next friday. so will they come only once
a week, if im lucky? im cold. i dont want to be up. anyway,
goodnight again :(
the first dream was amazing. woke up in a good mood.
the latest one, just now, i dont remember.
anyway, i put everything on the floor except the comp.
it was an act of desperation. but its still desperate.
im used to the staff not changing me. but now i havent
gotten food for 1½ day, neighboring on 2 days. they just
havent come to my door at all. i seriously dont know what
to do. i even put the duvet + sheet on the floor. that
wasnt good as it feels real cold now. i worked out in a
new way, i can push my upper body forwards some. real
good workout. its not hurting now the arms but will surely
later, im even afraid they will break. as for the workout
i could do it like 10-15 times and then get tired. but
because of my inherent endurance nowadays i can redo it
quickly. anyway. im so fucked. the boss at the previous
place said it would happen in may of this year. but december
when its dark and cold? they did say on friday, soon 2 days
ago id get food the next friday. so will they come only once
a week, if im lucky? im cold. i dont want to be up. anyway,
goodnight again :(
(no subject)
Dec. 13th, 2025 07:39 pmyeah i missspelled this name even. anyway im tired. cya. i dont know what tomorrow brings. i can pull up my back. well. with my hands on the gate. so ive gotten a lot stronger. i can do this like 10-15 times. i need more resistance. seemingly all the time. most calisthinetics feel like feather. even changing to 1kg weight.
