most updated 📖 quotesquotesquotesdotxls to continue where vaa left off. even if some quotes overlap you can still analyze when i posted it according to my akashic library etc, what happened during the day or around that time to figure out more meanings, bella couldnt

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im tired of the torture and poisoning and killswitches, everyone is predictable gay/shit fetish
and evil and ignoring
i wont have internet soon
or even a computer.
goodbye. hope you enjoyed the show. theres nothing left here

even the

dead people

in my family

tell me

theyre proud

of me

oh the bloating stopped

maybe, some some

fapped some

it feels different

every time now

im getting more and more vivid dreams

i dont know if they put it in the ventilation or if its a whiff outside of a psychocybin or amanita or in the textiles. but i can safely assure you this was the longest and most vivid dream ever. it was sort of visuals, and i talked with several people. just like a previous one lately i thought it was for real.

and it was a long dream as well.

i mean i took coffee with 100grams of coffee powder. you could dilute that to 50litres. i took maybe 5-10.

but wow what a dream.

it was close to märsta. rich people but not expensive clothes really. i was at a reception for animal abuse and fapped and some chick was annoyed.

but it was pretty psychedelic across the board. teleporting to places but i also danced with a chick so there was some "reality" to it.

but since theyre so weird here, why not? and i could walk / move in the dream.

oh, i also did hecatonchire healing. days ago. you get weird instructions, sort of like childs play "put coffee powder in both your nostrils and ears, then say youre a weirdo 50 times, then look at some weird porno" then the hecatonchire chanted it would help me. it worked. though hours later.

if i didnt mention it already

they give me toilet water if i watn water

so i can obviously not drink it anymore

it turns me batshit suicidal

so i ask for saft 1 litre

got that 2 times then never again

that happened for several things

then they just make the saft stronger and stronger

basically near no realwater at all

i am incredibly thirsty

i dont feel dried out

im just thirsty

i tried 2 c vitamin pills

hurt my teeth maybe did something better

i dont shit myself as much with less water

they only changed me once today

so at least something better

and it doesnt smell as bad

so even pure tapwater is rancid

like they say in the swedish truther community

anyway, i am so so thirsty, so so so thirsty :(

anyway i cant document all their abuse

it can on the lengths of 25-50 in a day

i wouldnt even have time until they abuse me again

so trying to update my sub blogs

havent added all yet

imperfectionisperfection

should have them all

if someone listens =(

i know they do but comments are nice

the other social media just makes me drained

it turns stupider and stupider

now on minds it was an ai image of a guy

with a head made out of a poop sausage pile

nothing tastes good now either

anyway complaining is good for you

as long as you know what youre complaining about

dont be mainstream dont be a cookiecutter

be yourself, everyone else already exists

yeah that sure didnt work

the neighbor starts

screaming at +0 db levels

just when i closed my eyes

by design

and my arms hurt

great

ill play some outlands

havent rested beyond a few moments today

did a lot of calisthinetics

maybe 1½ hour

scissor workout even

i can do it a lot

if i do it max speed

i even get some sort of flås

hypertrophy

i had fever dreams

so another torture

what it means is

you dream shortly

quite vividly

then you wake up

then you fall

asleep again

in a few secs

happened 4 times

maybe? it wasnt

that bad but weird

anyway after the

painkiller i can

work out again it

hurt some and ill

need them again

soon. theyre also

manipulating my

dreams so i had 1

gay 1. fuckers.

really i dont like

guys they cant stand

me and i dont like

anal sex. gaping assholes?

disgusting. and then i can

recall bella saying "youre

the type that could lick

someones asshole and not

think its gross". but that

was near the end maybe so

just her way of calling me

gay since she was tired of me

thats just so predictable and

boring almost any chick thats

liked me or i hugged and not

much more as they chose some

one average instead they have

just been so plain pretending

to be that. i mean if im tired

of you ill tell you your weak

points your lies your fakeness

when i chatted with julia last

spring i told her "i forgot how

boring you are". there was really

nothing to do at her place. we went

on promandes and painted once together

that was beautiful. but listening to the

most bullshit mainstream talk radio in

the morning and watching tv at night?

god i died. now theyve started with carrot

top again. oh i think i asked if she was

a redhead but she was blonde. maybe thats

how it started 1½ year ago. omg. btw i tried

working out if i didnt mention it here after

the painkiller. calisthinetics is the best.

no damages. i started it originally when i

slept literally 23 hours per day. i just blogged

some then played runescape then i was tired.

then i figured, why not at least try to work out?

id heard somewhere about calishinetics i think it

was twitter. what a clusterfuck it is now. fake

blue checkmarks from the sites own bots. fucked up.

anyway, in the beginning i only trained my right arm

and could only do 3 mins then 1 min rest. now i can do

6 hours easily without stopping. anyway bicep curls

eventually got boring, even when i did 1kg weights they

also felt like feathers. so i did scissor workouts in

the morning. i got tired in the beginning but after maybe

5 mins i could do it easily 15 now between pauses. i cant

quite time how long i went on but was an hour at least.

i apologize for missspellings. now its worse since the screen

is much lower. was better with stationary but theyre so noisy

and on this tiny table i dunno itd work, and i cant get higher

up. it was worse with doing 4 legal drugs at once. it just turned

to a mess. i wrote "its thick" instead of "i think" i noticed for

example. anyway ive started with leverpastejmajor med smörgåsgurka



some sorta nutrients beyond cheese. marmalade would be cool but im

sure it would taste like shampoo. like sweet things are nowadays.

i actually got real vinbärssaft. theres also vinbärssaft without

additives like conservatives sugar and water. doesnt even cost much

more than the fakes which arent just like soda though. and if you

have pure squeezed one you can dilute it yourself, add sugar

and then water when you make each glass for a greater taste.



i did this once with camomile. it grows by edges of dirt roads.

i picked several decilitres and then removed to the plants at home.

cooked it long, put in a glass flask, then diluted it, sugar isnt

really needed, and microwaved and its a real good sleeping agent.

and tastes wonderful. last i tried which was long ago though

commercial camomile isnt that refined, like peppermint tea only

tastes like metal, lead, for real, worse than black tea. and

tea has no relation to coffee. black tea is

shockfull of lead and it only makes you desensitized, like

the ultimate tardiv dyskinesi, so you just gotta work. no

thanks. https://www.google.com/search?q=sweating+food+disease

well, not what i was looking for. anyway i got this months

ago i dont remember. it wasnt last year at least. oh headsup.

i have cancer in the right hemisphere. ive had it since the mid

nullties. when i started writing more. it was really the sorry

state of my room at my grandparents. i had mouldy and rotting

food for a month or more. yeah cancer is really a fungus. it

was ineffably dusty as well, my grandma might have vacuumed

it once a year but probably less. anyway, i literally sweat

food. now when i eat hardbread my front and back upper ribcage

sweat it. even dip. its not just from eating i know that or

missing when i want to put it in. when i turn the bed back to

sleep or to pull myself up it reeks of breadcrumbs.

ultimate torture

i just vlogg while

laying back in bed

musing over things

its not bad but the

whole day went past

without me noticing

it its pitch black

already and it feels

like i didnt achieve

anything made a cover

i think it sucks anyway

oh right add it to

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