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no painkillers

i got 6 lol before

strange

anyway, i happened to have zink c vitamin pills

i took 2 since im the heavy brother

it superheated my body especially nose

it was throbbing with good things

so that surely healed

but now i slept a few hours

and its really hot and low air here

i wish they come soon =(

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im getting more and more vivid dreams

i dont know if they put it in the ventilation or if its a whiff outside of a psychocybin or amanita or in the textiles. but i can safely assure you this was the longest and most vivid dream ever. it was sort of visuals, and i talked with several people. just like a previous one lately i thought it was for real.

and it was a long dream as well.

i mean i took coffee with 100grams of coffee powder. you could dilute that to 50litres. i took maybe 5-10.

but wow what a dream.

it was close to märsta. rich people but not expensive clothes really. i was at a reception for animal abuse and fapped and some chick was annoyed.

but it was pretty psychedelic across the board. teleporting to places but i also danced with a chick so there was some "reality" to it.

but since theyre so weird here, why not? and i could walk / move in the dream.

oh, i also did hecatonchire healing. days ago. you get weird instructions, sort of like childs play "put coffee powder in both your nostrils and ears, then say youre a weirdo 50 times, then look at some weird porno" then the hecatonchire chanted it would help me. it worked. though hours later.

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anyway as for new dreams

they arent, ive had them before

ive only had 1 in a wheelchair

then years ago in a speedchair sort of from the future

when ai was new, had many amazing dreams then of the future

im seemingly not getting breakfast, they turn off the beeper

theyre so clumsy in a cute way here

i ask for breakfast, guy says

"were gonna fix it"

uhm, i didnt ask you to cook it from scratch

i want milk and a cheeze sandwich

anyway, it got worse

and im still not getting new dreams

oh got breakfast, im completely bloated

i drank some milk i got 4 halves of sandwich

i only took 1

before i could drink a lot of water

or eat bananas to help

but i dont want banana flies

because it was soft bread

which i asked for

i now lost all my energy

good nap =(

yes im spyfärdig

i feel like puking :\

the sandwich tasted like shampoo

oh my they do it in other stuff as well

its middle ages torture

and a new staff

it works over a 100 here

i figured with broad

administration but no

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oh the bloating stopped

maybe, some some

fapped some

it feels different

every time now

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i just cant write down all the torture and poisoning they do

its basically infinite

just 1 thing

the wet the bed

"it will dry"

it will rot and mould

yeah beca

i dont care

them changing me put me in a worse mood

maybe i got some energy i doubt it

i had more to complain but god damnit

documenting and reflecting on it would be infinite

there, i didnt think infinity existed but it does

"art is never finished, only abandoned"

i dont know what drugs they take to act like this

its just infinitely disgusting

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even the

dead people

in my family

tell me

theyre proud

of me

this is the end of end of ends of ends

foodstrike but it doesnt matter they dont give me any they dont come to the door except to torture me when im ok with eating 2 mins later. im tired of this torture. ill drink their petroleum coffee and be psychotic and go to prison. if they ever open the door again and actually give me something. i was to get chinese food today but they wanted to torture me more. id been expecting it an entire week. greatest way to torture right? theyre clumsy in a cute way i break them so easily. but they have infinite amount of drugs and black magick superpowers at their disposal. anyway the only way is down. except i had no anxiety, no ocd, really nothing bad happening, i was working out a lot as well. and since i was ok, i got the killswitch. torture leads to existance, and without any i wont get any. ill block tracey and my grandma and staff wont come to the door again.

ive lost all my friends and family, i lost my facebook account. i got my homepage deleted.

this is not out of desperation. it will never get better only exponentially worse.

and i wont wait it out. im proud of my achievements. i have done a lot of art music poetry.

but they cant kill me slowly. torture me slowly. poison me slowly.

because like i said its exponential, worse every day. because i happened to turn ok.

ill lock this account as well. all social media has turned omnistupid.

"do you know these" on facebook is just 50% faggets and 50% pornspambots.

no one barely says anything except extreme insults and acting like a huge fagget.

not bye or anything ill be tortured 24 more years. i dont know how.

but its horrible. im not giving up. im just tired of this all.

passive prostitution. like passive aggressivness. remember that.

if anyone once cared, they sure dont show it.

ill get instructions to embarass myself from hecatonchires.

but it wont get much better. and much much worse.

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im tired of the torture and poisoning and killswitches, everyone is predictable gay/shit fetish
and evil and ignoring
i wont have internet soon
or even a computer.
goodbye. hope you enjoyed the show. theres nothing left here