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it seems to be chillier now, about -5C°

but since its snow it really feels like +15C°

strangely enough it turns to ±0C° every other day

either its 3mm snow or quite a lot of rain

the weird part is the pipe,

if its really been pouring down

it sounds like a very wet

pussy being fingered feverently

im sure its a spirit doing it

lots of spirits here

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i had fever dreams

so another torture

what it means is

you dream shortly

quite vividly

then you wake up

then you fall

asleep again

in a few secs

happened 4 times

maybe? it wasnt

that bad but weird

anyway after the

painkiller i can

work out again it

hurt some and ill

need them again

soon. theyre also

manipulating my

dreams so i had 1

gay 1. fuckers.

really i dont like

guys they cant stand

me and i dont like

anal sex. gaping assholes?

disgusting. and then i can

recall bella saying "youre

the type that could lick

someones asshole and not

think its gross". but that

was near the end maybe so

just her way of calling me

gay since she was tired of me

thats just so predictable and

boring almost any chick thats

liked me or i hugged and not

much more as they chose some

one average instead they have

just been so plain pretending

to be that. i mean if im tired

of you ill tell you your weak

points your lies your fakeness

when i chatted with julia last

spring i told her "i forgot how

boring you are". there was really

nothing to do at her place. we went

on promandes and painted once together

that was beautiful. but listening to the

most bullshit mainstream talk radio in

the morning and watching tv at night?

god i died. now theyve started with carrot

top again. oh i think i asked if she was

a redhead but she was blonde. maybe thats

how it started 1½ year ago. omg. btw i tried

working out if i didnt mention it here after

the painkiller. calisthinetics is the best.

no damages. i started it originally when i

slept literally 23 hours per day. i just blogged

some then played runescape then i was tired.

then i figured, why not at least try to work out?

id heard somewhere about calishinetics i think it

was twitter. what a clusterfuck it is now. fake

blue checkmarks from the sites own bots. fucked up.

anyway, in the beginning i only trained my right arm

and could only do 3 mins then 1 min rest. now i can do

6 hours easily without stopping. anyway bicep curls

eventually got boring, even when i did 1kg weights they

also felt like feathers. so i did scissor workouts in

the morning. i got tired in the beginning but after maybe

5 mins i could do it easily 15 now between pauses. i cant

quite time how long i went on but was an hour at least.

i apologize for missspellings. now its worse since the screen

is much lower. was better with stationary but theyre so noisy

and on this tiny table i dunno itd work, and i cant get higher

up. it was worse with doing 4 legal drugs at once. it just turned

to a mess. i wrote "its thick" instead of "i think" i noticed for

example. anyway ive started with leverpastejmajor med smörgåsgurka



some sorta nutrients beyond cheese. marmalade would be cool but im

sure it would taste like shampoo. like sweet things are nowadays.

i actually got real vinbärssaft. theres also vinbärssaft without

additives like conservatives sugar and water. doesnt even cost much

more than the fakes which arent just like soda though. and if you

have pure squeezed one you can dilute it yourself, add sugar

and then water when you make each glass for a greater taste.



i did this once with camomile. it grows by edges of dirt roads.

i picked several decilitres and then removed to the plants at home.

cooked it long, put in a glass flask, then diluted it, sugar isnt

really needed, and microwaved and its a real good sleeping agent.

and tastes wonderful. last i tried which was long ago though

commercial camomile isnt that refined, like peppermint tea only

tastes like metal, lead, for real, worse than black tea. and

tea has no relation to coffee. black tea is

shockfull of lead and it only makes you desensitized, like

the ultimate tardiv dyskinesi, so you just gotta work. no

thanks. https://www.google.com/search?q=sweating+food+disease

well, not what i was looking for. anyway i got this months

ago i dont remember. it wasnt last year at least. oh headsup.

i have cancer in the right hemisphere. ive had it since the mid

nullties. when i started writing more. it was really the sorry

state of my room at my grandparents. i had mouldy and rotting

food for a month or more. yeah cancer is really a fungus. it

was ineffably dusty as well, my grandma might have vacuumed

it once a year but probably less. anyway, i literally sweat

food. now when i eat hardbread my front and back upper ribcage

sweat it. even dip. its not just from eating i know that or

missing when i want to put it in. when i turn the bed back to

sleep or to pull myself up it reeks of breadcrumbs.

dreamwidth.org was really started in 1937

then d.w

the year is stored with two digit value 0-99 on old systems

we had the millenium bug which really didnt do anything

but they changed to 000-999 at least

and i remember my old dos computer from 1994 had 1957-2057 as date

we had a bug in firefox which tried to connect people on the ip address 0.0.0.1

the lowest is really 168.192.0.1 which is local host

https://www.google.com/search?q=168.192.0.1

beyond that is superuser aka god

then there are assyncja which weaves even the gods fate

beyond that is annunaki controlling this emulation

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yeah that sure didnt work

the neighbor starts

screaming at +0 db levels

just when i closed my eyes

by design

and my arms hurt

great

ill play some outlands

havent rested beyond a few moments today

did a lot of calisthinetics

maybe 1½ hour

scissor workout even

i can do it a lot

if i do it max speed

i even get some sort of flås

hypertrophy

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so i was shaking too bad

coffee causes parkinson

quit it and youll

be healed overnight

anyway asked for saft

its like uncarbonated soda

and was to get some knäcke

brödmackor with leverpastej

and smörgåsgurka hope it dont

get too far im very weak. anyway

mister nextwallneighbor screamed

twice as i tried to rest to fall

asleep the first 5 secs then every

5 mins so that didnt work so listened

to transubstantiation while doing kung

fu massage some dosen time to make the

fibromyalgia pain stop it worked i eeemingly

slept 2 hours only its the coffees fault it

doesnt work as well with neuroleptics. brb

got the fika. gnight.

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if i didnt mention it already

they give me toilet water if i watn water

so i can obviously not drink it anymore

it turns me batshit suicidal

so i ask for saft 1 litre

got that 2 times then never again

that happened for several things

then they just make the saft stronger and stronger

basically near no realwater at all

i am incredibly thirsty

i dont feel dried out

im just thirsty

i tried 2 c vitamin pills

hurt my teeth maybe did something better

i dont shit myself as much with less water

they only changed me once today

so at least something better

and it doesnt smell as bad

so even pure tapwater is rancid

like they say in the swedish truther community

anyway, i am so so thirsty, so so so thirsty :(

anyway i cant document all their abuse

it can on the lengths of 25-50 in a day

i wouldnt even have time until they abuse me again

so trying to update my sub blogs

havent added all yet

imperfectionisperfection

should have them all

if someone listens =(

i know they do but comments are nice

the other social media just makes me drained

it turns stupider and stupider

now on minds it was an ai image of a guy

with a head made out of a poop sausage pile

nothing tastes good now either

anyway complaining is good for you

as long as you know what youre complaining about

dont be mainstream dont be a cookiecutter

be yourself, everyone else already exists