adrenaline save

[visvanatha]

it seems you get adrenaline rushes during anxiety

i got about 3

then i was ok some 20 mins after the last

so thats how they do it

and all everyone talks about is dopamine

i think its a lot more

i asked fredrik once

"how many body drugs are there?"

he replied "there are a lot"

anyway fucking hail to fredrik

he died 2 years ago so i would get a new housing seemingly

his heart just stopped

hed taken the corona vaccine unfortunately

his heart stopped and my went on

in a better world

not perfect

but better than the 2 after

better than the present since its nothing here now

i hear SFX outside my door but i dont care

if its mean or loud it might bother me for a splitsecond

but i dont care

i guess it protects against dementia

and ill live off of coffee

i heard a guy doing that

but at least he got it hot and with liquid

and ill live off of diaper dip

i use the coffee both as dip

and to melt on my tongue

at least its something

itll last months

maybe karin will come

if she doesnt even come in 3 months

will they come when rats have feasted on my body?

i dont know

how long will it take to kill me?

i got to know 25 years

i have to get to a better place eventually

or a worse

rättspsyk?

its still better than the ignore

but they have the hole there im sure

anyway im better now again

it sucked the anxiety

i got some instructions on what to do

but the hecatonchires helped me