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[visvanatha]

goodnight everyone whoever cares in some way through here or the ether :) <3

i had anxiety for about 30 mins

after 15 mins i got tardiv dyskinesi

went online put on some music played outlands

but got tired after a min

rested again

maybe it was an hour total

i survived it i didnt throw away my comp

maybe i will poo myself soon my stomache is built up for something............

anyway survived another day, figured out why i had this prob

i made myself free, too free, and yeah i drank too much holy water

now i get no water no food, someone said as i was yelling out

in the beginning today "we dont hear you"

then nothing more, of course they hear me

im yelling out a lot more, i have some hope

at least i make them snort for coke to dampen their conciousness

and theyre summoning people doing SFX outside my door but it doesnt phase me

just a bugged llm so called morph landscape

i seemingly have anxiety again =***( gnight! :(